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Ever since so young, I've had this stomach cramps
problem from time to
time. The stomach cramp usually comes on Sunday, when the clinics are
closed for the weekend, and many hospitals are not open for walk-in. When
I was young, my mom told me that I had this pain because I didn't eat what
she told me to eat (especially the fat part of the bbq pork). During
every meal, I wanted to drink a lot of fluid,
but my
nanny and mother didn't allow me to because they believed soup and water
should be
drunk after the meal but not during the meal, and they made me to eat
everything on my dish and in my bowl first before I
could take a sip of water. Unfortunately for some reasons, I found it
really hard to swollow the food and I vomited very often when my throat
was not feeling well as the
food entered. I made my nanny and mother really angry because they
thought I was wasting food and they didn't understand why had I been such
a bad child during mealtime.
During the summer of my 3rd year in university, I went back to HK for summer job and I lived with my mom for four months. During these four months, I'd been sufferring from this digestive system infection so seriously that the doctor of the clinic close to our home ordered me not to eat anything but just drink sugar water. My mom thought he was crazy, so she still brought me to the hotels and restaurants which had many expensive new flavours. One time my mom ordered a so-called "errupting volcano ice-cream" for me and that night at around 2am, I had a very serious stomach pain. At first it was just my stomach, and I kept vomitting even when there was no more food in my stomach. Then, my legs and arms also started cramping. I was in such a pain that I felt my stomach was being squeezed together that it would break into pieces at any time. I remembered that I read a book, the testimony of an old powerful speaker, Mr. Ng Yuen Fong. His young daughter died from stomach pain the day before her university graduation ceremony, and when the doctor did the autopsy on her body, they found that her stomach was broken into pieces. I thought, "I'll die of the same reason". My mom was holding my body in position while I was vomitting and cramping. With my weak tremebling voice, I told my mom, "Mammi, I think I'm dying". My mom said, "No, you won't die, don't speak", and she immediately went inside her idols room, and started worshipping to her idols. I was suffering in severe pain, and lying on the sofa alone. Hearing my mom's voice of worshipping idols, a very bad thinking swept across my mind, "Whatever that can save me, just save me from the pain now". Suddenly, I remembered God's message from bible, "Do not surrender to evil because eternal life is more important than our short days on earth." Then, I felt so ashamed and I immediately prayed to God, "Father, I was so wrong to have that thinking. If you are taking me away by your will, let it be true." I was relieved after my prayer because I knew that even if I am to leave the world at that particular moment, I will enter God's heaveny realm, and Jesus has prepared a room for me. Thus, I started to calm down and waited peacefully. Gradually, I no longer felt the pain as though my nerve system had already stopped functioning. Soon after, the ambulance arrived, and after a day I recovered in the hospital. -- That was my closest encounter of death in my life. It had a big impact on me. I found myself so volunerable when facing pains and illnesses , and as human beings, we are weak and we will easily fall during trials, but God will not give up on us. He will remind us His salvation at that very moment and give us a choice. If we turn back to Him, He will save us and give us peace. Dear friend, be wise to make a decision. Romans Ch 10:13 "For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." |
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